anyone reads this?

i doubt it. so it'll be good. i will whine here, hehe. what can i whine about? not much really except lack of the good stuff otherwise known as girl companionship. crazy huh? they say you don't know what you have until you lose it, but by the looks of it i guess it's the same. i made sense for us to have ended, but still there were those weekends or those breaks where we saw each other and it was cool. there also the phone calls. it was...good. i guess i didn't know how much loneliness i had until i lost it..or...backwards. i've lived inside my head all my life and i like it that way and i would like to find a girl who is kinda like me. who instead of talking, thinks. is that so hard to find? most people i meet are talkers. ugh. but then again i guess people who keep to themselves, the ones i would like to meet, are the ones i will not meet. that is life i suppose. i mean, what girl likes jazz+big band music+rock+soul+some old school+fun music+classical+bands like the "seatbelts"+anime+reading good books+making fun of bad art+other good stuff that you can extrapolate from the previous statements? i know of one girl but alas like all awesome things, she is unavailable if you know what i mean. and if she were not, would it be worth messing a good friendmaking for smth fickle? i don't think so.
oh no, actually i know another girl. but she is in another country AND plays for the other team...if you know what i mean again.
so you might say, "what a whiner!" but hey, if you read this then you probably have it all good and look at things from the 30degree rotation of the "happiness" kaleidoscope. (which reminds me, i gotta make one for my little bro). i'd like to write more but i think i have need of sleep.