stories to tell

 25000 steps today.  Morning: woke up and pretty much had to meet a r for fancy coffee. I felt a little weird because she had to pick me up to get to the place. i don't like that because i feel like it makes people less inclined to hang out with me if they think they have to pick me up. i offered to meet her there but she refused. the ride itself was fun. i acted as the navigator using her phone while she listened to evermore songs. the coffee shop was pretty much what you'd expect. it was small with little wooden tables along the wall and a chalk board behind the counter. they also had some pastries and i couldn't help but to buy one. we got some fancy coffee with 'tajin' in it.  unknown time: We went to a new park. we walked in the snow and talked. a little bit of everything. i told her about her super leggings. gosh how embarrassing haha. i brought up cy. i guess she's been on my mind lately. i don't know why. i even dreamed with her last night. in my dre...

 morning: barely any time to do anything. ran out the door as fast possible made it just in time to see the train pull away. great times. made it to work, saw all familiar faces. got the animal, easy peasy lemon squeezy for a super pig genius as myself (or so i claimed). got the dude ready and headed out for coffee. the classic 'bucks vs 'bou but i wanted a frap. mistake number one of the day on the attempts to eat less calories. lol.    afternoon: lunch with k. it was actually quite fun. she's got a sort of rough and tumble happy-go-lucky attitude that is a bit refreshing. also, it's always fun to have someone who wants to be adventurous about food and enjoy the process even if the food is not their cup of tea...my style.  work was a mixed bag. the boss decided to shit on my afternoon, the following month, and then the following 1.5 years. all in the span of 10 minutes. but maybe i can turn the shit into manure. even with his help. i just need to voice my needs. my ...

morning/afternoon: woke up. made coffee. it was good. i'm getting tired of the natural process beans though. they are great as a novelty but after a while the special flavoring can get a little boring because to me it's a little overpowering over the other coffee notes. either way it's still miles ahead of the coffee shops around work.  i did some work at home which felt good. then i went to work. met up with r and it was fun. talked about work, life and other silly stuff. she's cool peeps. she offered me a ride home which i took happily and readily. which was a mistake. in my excitement of continued conversation, i left my keys at work -_-  evening: talked to my younger bro. he keeps clashing with the father but hopefully he can be the more mature one. fingers crossed. otherwise i just watched tv and played video games at the same time. doing either would be too boring. i also daydreamed about what would life be if cy was here with me. sigh. i need to get away from tha...

The weekend: Saturday. I woke up rather late but slept well. made arepas with cheddar cheese and ham and turkey for brunch. i was thinking about going out for a walk when e invited me to the park with her dog. the park was vast and the weather was cold and windy. the snow had hardened over the cold snap of the previous days but it still gave in when i walked. The dog left no mark except when he jumped to retrieve his ball. it was beautiful and cool to see him run at full speed and lift up puffs of snow smoke when he masterfully catches the ball. he is such a cool dog. there was a small incident when he got too excited and started chasing a smaller dog and wouldn't come back. poor e probably felt embarrassed and a little miffed that her dog misbehaved. but nature is nature. and it was a real fun time until that point. i ran alongside d (d for dog) and we jumped in the snow, chased after balls, and just had a blast amidst the snow flurries. it was about 40 minutes in when e discovere...

 not a very interesting day. morning: left for work wearing crocs and no hat. it was freezing. on the train there was a woman who was being hit on by some random dude. i don't know how well received it was. i don't think it was invited. i didn't know what to do. i didn't know if there's anything to do! if a person intervenes it calls more attention to the woman and she might not want that. she might also not want a man interfering in her battles. it's just a great injustice that women have to be subjected to harassment constantly, and there's not a clear answer. violence is always there looming behind every creeper's compliment. argh, the world can suck sometimes. work: nothing unusual. had meetings for both of my jobs. got things to do for both places. feeling slowed down by the overwhelming amount of work that needs to be done. i must step back recall the "one thing at a time" idiom.  talked about weddings to r today. it was interesting as it...

 morning: woke up well rested. or so i think. according to fitbit had one of my highest sleeping scores ever: 88. not bad. I did however woke up lazy. i looked up at my phone and the message from yesterday was still waiting on my phone. i had left it unread hoping that their window to hang out with me had passed already. i had my excuse ready but then i opened it "hey do you want to catch up tomorrow evening or afternoon?". RATS! i felt obliged to say yes. lately i have not wanted to be social at all. but i also don't want to lose the few friends i have. i proposed that we go out and walk their dog in a park somewhere near my home. i wanted breakfast but i was lazy so i just laid in my bed and then rolled onto my couch watching tv. the morning turned into the afternoon.   afternoon: i had two hours before my play date. i summed up the energies to take a shower and run to the grocery store. i bought cheese, a lot of it for some reason, bread, ham, and other stuff. weirdly ...

 The work week started. it's been more tiring than anticipated. every day i get home and have 0 energy. all i want to do i lay down and sleep. i usually stay up and watch some tv though. on some day in the middle of this i received a book case. i couldn't build it until the next day because i was so tired. Once built however, it's really been great.  it houses my records and books and plants. it looks great as well.  Things of note for the week so far: -went on an impromptu walk with a friend. talked about the covid19 family drama. we both had similar experiences. are we the bad guys for wanting to be extra cautious this season?  -read a ton of papers (7). Thoroughly read. and summarized. feels not bad. -being with everyone back in lab is a little hard. i am having a hard time being social and funny. what is my problem? these people all seem nice -trying to be nicer this year. the week started rocky but i think it's improving. -no yoga. i almost did it tonight but de...

 i have been lazy about reading. i have about 3-4 books waiting but i keep just going to youtube to pass the time.  morning: this morning i woke up rather well. i had energy. my fitbit said i slept about 7 hours. score in the high 70's. i thought about making myself a three egg omelette with ham and cheese but forced myself to earn it.   yoga:  i did yoga again. today's video was mainly about stretching and then relaxing. it was nice. my lower back and hips felt very stretched out, however one side of my body felt it more painfully than the other. i hate the fact that this is me. this discrepancy is why i have had back aches. if i worked out regularly i believe i wouldn't be in this fragile position. here's to improving the strength of my body this year. at the end of the yoga practice i was utterly relaxed and i wished i could stayed sleeping in the floor. The eggs called out. breakfast: took the eggs out. then the bread. decided to make an egg sandwich the way...

 i've heard that it's good practice to keep a journal. i'm going to try it again. just a daily accounts of whatever i've done throughout the day or random thoughts. maybe it'll help cope with the loneliness that gets overwhelming at times.   coffee: today i woke up. i thought about making breakfast before a meeting. but as always i dragged my feet and only had time to make coffee, or so i thought! i decided to make two cups to fill a large tumbler but unfortunately the amount of ground coffee was too much for my small cloth filter. i tried to force it in anyway. the grounds were almost to the brim before i started pouring the water. needless to say, as i was brewing i had to stop halfway to jump in the meeting.  meeting: the meeting went as well as i imagined. my pi went overboard with how much we can do, while ignoring the actual wants of the clients. it is unfortunate that i also work for the client and now i have to appease both sides by working on both sides of ...