Smile

 Can’t stop dreaming about you. Today I was at the store and found myself smiling about that time when we accidentally bumped into each other. All those papers on the floor. They seemed to be made out of lead how hard they fell. I apologized as you bent down to pick them up and i felt silly and self conscious as I too went down with you. It was very cliche the way it all happened. I think you felt my embarrassment a smiled at me. I wanted to love you right there and then. 

The world was spinning in the wrong direction when we stood up and i was not able to say anything then. I had never seen someone so beautiful before. Your eyes, scrunching from the awkward smile, were kind and shy yet shined brighter than an emerald sea. I didn’t want you to find me staring so I looked down but your mouth was just as enchanting. Your lips were a hot-pink lemonade in a hot summer day. Your kiss would be enough to make Aphrodite relinquish her title. 

And now I find myself smiling because maybe I knew then we were meant for each other. You call me an exaggerator, a liar, a good natured gaslighter. But I’m just in love with the prettiest person and there’s nothing I can do about it but sing. And smile. I come home to you, with a simple dinner and a kiss on the forehead. We watch tv and then head to bed. You smile again but only because I say something dumb. 

That smile. It is devastating to me. It immediately lowers my barriers and draws me in. Totally enchanted by you. Desiring nothing but to see it again. I still remember the first time you smiled not out of awkwardness. We biked to that ice cream store and ate our cones in the park. The sun was shining and we talked about the future. We weren’t dating yet but there was something in the air. It was like a seed of magic had been planted in my heart. The whole time with you, the air felt smooth and friendly, the grass underneath was soft and cuddly, and the ice cream was just melty enough to be perfect. I looked into the sky and while you were talking I felt at peace, I swear I could see the stars through the sun lighted sky. The universe spoke to me and I heard a slight whisper. 

That experience kept repeating every time I was lucky to be around you. And it grew and grew until I had to tell you how I felt under that tree or I would explode. Your enigma became ours and now I understood that first smile. Now I get to love you and for you to love me. Now I get to get your hand soap and see that smile. That smile for my universe. It’s a good trade.