Another letter

Lucy,

I keep daydreaming of how I would tell you I like like you. You are a no nonsense person so I think maybe a direct route would be best. But then sometimes we talk and I think you’d also like a romantic moment, a perfect time to be swayed together. It’s also scary. Scary because there are many reasons why someone could say we would not work as a couple.  Although from my point of view it’s worth trying. Those reasons are superficial at best, when what we could be goes to infinity and beyond. When I am with you, I feel equally at peace and filled with energy. It’s very much like what you think when the music swells in a movie. My feet get lighter and suddenly I’m floating on a cloud of joy. I try to be nonchalant but my eyes disobey me to look at you more often than I’d like. I’m almost sure you know I like you. Maybe you haven’t said anything because you don’t like me back? Or maybe it’s also scary for you? 

I’ve liked your vibe ever since I met you. Then the more I got to know you the more I liked you. I don’t know exactly when throughout the years of our friendship did things change. Maybe it has been growing steadily and now it’s beyond doubt. I like like you. These days I imagine how wonderful it would be to be close to you, to do things like hold your hand while in line getting popcorn. Or to cuddle and warm you when you’re feeling cold while watching tv. 

How to tell you i want to take our friendship in a new direction? Directly and with no frills? Invite you to a nice dinner? Go out for a walk? Show up unannounced at your house? Write you a letter? Text you? Email you? Write it in my blog and send you a link? Write a poem asking you out? Candygram?

All I know is that I have an amazing time any time I’m with you. When we have long conversations or when we’re pretty quiet. When we’re alone or when we’re with friends. You make me laugh and I think that’s bonkers nice. You make me say things like “bonkers nice“. 

I hope you feel the same. I hope I make you laugh deeply and happily. I hope being with me also brings you peace and joy. I want you to feel safe and happy. Imagine the most delicious bear hug in your heart and soul and that’s what I want us to feel when we’re together. 

I want to romance you every day. In little things. Cook for you, hand you your jacket, go to the store when you just want a little snack. In big things, give you love when you’re down, take care of you when you’re sick, have your back when you need it. I want to celebrate all your wins. And I know you’ll have many of them because you’re so amazing. Smart, beautiful, observant, wise. I feel lucky our paths crossed. 

Forever yours,

Schroeder.