Exhaustion

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 The work week started. it's been more tiring than anticipated. every day i get home and have 0 energy. all i want to do i lay down and sleep. i usually stay up and watch some tv though. on some day in the middle of this i received a book case. i couldn't build it until the next day because i was so tired. Once built however, it's really been great. 

it houses my records and books and plants. it looks great as well. 

Things of note for the week so far:

-went on an impromptu walk with a friend. talked about the covid19 family drama. we both had similar experiences. are we the bad guys for wanting to be extra cautious this season? 

-read a ton of papers (7). Thoroughly read. and summarized. feels not bad.

-being with everyone back in lab is a little hard. i am having a hard time being social and funny. what is my problem? these people all seem nice

-trying to be nicer this year. the week started rocky but i think it's improving.

-no yoga. i almost did it tonight but decided i would be happier going to sleep early.

 

Other thoughts:

i  hope i'll recover over the weekend. i want to lose weight but i think the emotional eating is my achilles heel. i think i'm replacing friendships with food. i want to go sledding this weekend. hopefully i'll be able to do it.

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