curtains

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 morning:

woke up sleepy still. from 6 am onward i only slept in 30 minute intervals. it was awful. if it wasn't the sunlight coming through the window it was the sounds of what must have been a new subway being built right under my window. 

once i woke up i checked my emails and got ready for work. 

also! after talking with r and her list of morning things i felt compelled to do some yoga. i really didn't want to but i know i need it and if i can't use peer pressure for positive things, what is it good for?

afternoon:

i was planning on working at home all day but i got asked for a favor in the office. that plus i asked r to give me a ride so i could go and buy blackout curtains. i couldn't get over the bad sleep. 

before heading into work i cooked lunch. frozen veggies with chicken. not bad. but i did "cook" everything in the microwave and it's just not as tasty as it could have been. 

at work things went pretty alright. did some things but not all the things. hopefully tomorrow will be more productive. 

after work r and her jonas' brothers machine drove us to get my curtains and some groceries for her. on the way to her car we got some bubble tea (which was ok but i wished i had gotten a more exotic flavor than grapefruit). 

We got our stuff and then r realized that i have also never hard any of harry style's stuff. the jonas' bros machine became the harry styles mobile. it was...not bad. i might listen to it if i'm bored one of these days.

night:

curtains set-up. turns out i don't have a drill and it takes forever to make a hole in a wall without one. i also apparently tried to set it a little too low and it was hitting some frame of the window so then i had to raise it u p a bit. Unfortunately i had already made 4 holes so i had to go back and redo them. tomorrow i'm prepared to have both of my arms sore. anyway, it took about 30 minutes to do a 5 minute job but i did it. the curtains are still a little short for the entire length of the window but i think they will definitely help block out most of the annoying morning light. i was really glad r helped me out and just hanging out with her was a nice refreshing change of pace. i don't know what it is about her. she's very young but acts very cool. unlike some of my other friends here who are around her age. there's always a sense of anxiety, of still trying to find who they are, that i don't get much with r. she has a good calm energy. i need more friends like that so i can rotate them and always hang out around people who are awesome without taxing them. 

thoughts:

i wonder if i'm too sensitive. i mentioned to e that i would like to have a dog, after she showed a cool dv video. and immediately she starts talking about how much responsibility it is to have a dog. it almost felt like a sermon you give to a little kid about why they can't have a dog yet. it just felt uncalled for and she sort of insinuates that i'm not good enough for one. i felt miffed about it. i wanted to say something but i don't want get into another argument where she can say it was misunderstanding and i end up looking like an overly sensitive person looking to get offended by anything. she basically said i should not try to have a dog because i wouldn't be enough. not like her i suppose. who had her dog in the same apartment i have now, with the same workload (or more) that i have, with similar budget as i have. it was a little insulting really. did she do it on purpose? am i too getting offended too easily? did i offend her in some other way and now she's taking it out on me? i want to know what i did wrong.

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