blur of a day

 morning:

woke up in time for a work meeting. a little groggy and still trying to process all the things i had to do i made coffee and ate a banana. at this point having bought that banana set last week has been a life saver. the meeting went well. it was scheduled for 30 minutes because we thought we wouldn't have much to say after meeting in some capacity every day of the week. at the end we ended up talking for over 45 minutes. i got more things to do. 

i quickly took a shower and headed into lab. i wasn't planning on going in but mini boss #2 left his computer rendering videos and had to come in to pick it up. initially i wanted to be lazy and take the train but because i was running late i had to take the bicycle. 

so much fun! the skies were gray and sad but the movement, the wind in my face, the sounds of freedom were all around me. i wanted to keep going. i told myself i would do what i needed to do quickly and go for a good afternoon bike, maybe to the lakes or some other nice place. 

afternoon:

By the time mini boss #2 left it was time for lunch. i treated myself to some delicious afrodeli. sweet plantains are the bomb. 

at work i talked with w who said that m and himself were thinking of inviting me to my own place to have a nice bbq on sunday. i said that sounded like a good idea, since the weather is supposed to be warmer than usual. i also talked to our coordinator who is still learning the ropes of what's needed and we went through some of our inventory and storage spaces. then i talked to t who is building another set-up for his kidney project. this one though will not have movement or heating elements, as the company decided that they are not that important to their goals. lol.

i also continued to clean up the work from e yesterday. i just wanted to make sure everything would work come next week. i can't be sure anyone will come in on monday to get it done. actually, coffee bet for tuesday work that e will not even show up on monday and expect that her stuff would have magically gotten organized and the apparatus plugged back in. if she shows up i'll get starbucks, if she doesn't caribou. 

then i got to work on my own shit. i contacted the vendor of our $500000 machine that i didn't* break. they will get back to me next week. i wrote some of the conclusion to my paper, made a couple more of possible tables. i also did some impromptu work that mini boss #1 required me to do last freaking minute. 

needless to say i left and there wasn't much sun time left. no long bike ride for me.

evening/night:

Still, i took the long way home and it was glorious. i got into a couple of tiny puddles, but they could have been avoided, maybe. once home i called the fam and then i thought about going out to get a coffee but i didn't want to go alone so i just stayed home watching the last rays of the sun hide away. 

watched tv, got tired and i'm calling it a day. i am unsure about tomorrow. i just learned that one of my favorite places is opening their patios tomorrow so maybe i'll check that out? maybe i'll dare go on a long bike ride? who knows. i should also sneak in a little work so i don't fall behind.

i need to go to colombia sometime soon or i'll go insane....please covid..be done

thoughts:

i hate being so tired. when i don't get enough sleep it feels like all my emotions are raw and exposed. everything is felt to the 1000th degree. if i'm happy it's pure joy, and the opposite. it's like that but for ALL emotions. even the ones that are just pure confusion. i ended up trying to call cy again. i'm an idiot i know. i don't even know what i would say to her. gah!