dua lipa energy

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 again really late to make a detailed post.

woke up extra early to go to work again. we received a heart and it needed to be carefully dissected and fixed for storage. it's usually a two (or three) person job. i volunteered to be one of the people to help and then waited for someone else to volunteer. this was last night. then the night became morning. and the only person to ask about it was e. she inquired about updates on its arrival, didn't actually volunteer. she was the only person even awake at that time but i was still not ready to see her again. our last encounter of a high positive emotion followed by low rejection left a sour taste in my mouth. i feel like i'm being judged and i keep losing that trial. so i told her to not worry about the heart and i made the decision to do it all on my own if it came down to it. i'd rather the extra work than to be made feel inferior just for being me. sorry.

although i got verbal confirmation that the heart would arrive in 15 minutes, the actual delivery was delayed by unknown reasons to me. there wasn't even a need for a delivery since the surgery was being performed in the same building. i had about 1.5 hours of waiting. but i didn't let it go to waste. i walked around campus in a beautiful morning. i had breakfast in a park. i saw the sun create pretty shadows with the still bare tree branches. it was a very uplifting morning.

once i got the heart i got to work. holy smokes does it take forever by yourself! there's so much preparation of things, so many things that go WAY faster when one person can take care of the organ while the other assists with clean hands. i won't take it for granted ever again. on the other hand, it is totally doable. it's easy for 2 people. it's a freaking cake walk with 3. to help me keep my energy up i put dua lipa's tiny desk concert. 

that shit slaps. 

another thing i did while waiting for the heart was invite jc and r to brunch. they are very chill people and i don't think they judge me for talking about whatever. so we met after i did my work. we all had cool sunglasses and ordered some choice morning cocktails. on my way to the restaurant i had thought of questions and topics to ask them to keep the conversation interesting but these guys were so cool, our conversation was just natural and fun and pleasant and serious sometimes and everything in between a little. i think these are my people. it was so much fun we stayed in the restaurant's patio area for way longer than expected. we got cocktails, then food, then maybe another drink(?), then coffee. it was glorious. the weather was awesome and the company stellar. so when we were headed our way i just followed them along and then doubled back to my bike. 

once home i wanted to rest for a bit but then c and j invited me to watch the finale of wandavision. i wanted to say no. in fact i did say no at first. but then they insisted and i ended up meeting them. it went fine. after the show we decided to watch shrek while playing a drinking game. that was...funnier. it had been a while since shrek and it brought a lot of fun memories of my siblings and i memorizing it. also towards the end, when we were a bit more tipsy, c and i were singing along the songs and it just felt good. 

this looks like spring right? is it here yet?

 

you want to make my heart skip, sing with me

another post pandemic activity i must do: karaoke.

back home my apartment feels hot as balls. i opened all the windows, hopefully i can sleep well.

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